Friday, April 20, 2012

Leaving the Nest

"Maybe sometimes, we've got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same"

I've been caught up between doing what other people, and other people being my parents want me to do. Even though, its not like they are not letting me make my own choices, but they, they being my father.. he's trying to control my every future move. In the present, everything is fine. But as soon as I start talking, moving out..marriage..or become my own person, hes get all defensive and makes me feel guilty. I'm tired of it. And I have been for 6 or 7 years now. I thought it all would stop as soon as I hit 18, 19, 20, or 21. But my 21st birthday is in less than a month and I'm about to tell him how I'm going to live my life according to what my standards are. I love and respect my dad, but I'm a grown woman and I'm not going to be controlled by a single ounce of the guilt he puts on my shoulders.

"When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer? Do what you want to."

Credits to, Corinne Bailey Rae and her song "Put Your Records On"  
That songs stuck on replay. And will be until I get out of this rutt I call leaving the nest.

No longer is there going to be a fake
smile painted on my face. I'm going to
say what I need to say in order to achieve the things
I want for my future.

The Freedom is Mine. All Mine.

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